| Thursday, March 11, 2004 |
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Yes Boulderactive is this weekend. Please come down to say hi and keep us alive you guys. Its gonna be at Toa Payoh HDB Hub. We would definitely appreciate familiar faces. Especially since my princess eli has me scheduled at the registration booth from 8am to 5.30pm on Saturday and 8am to 8pm on Sunday. I think she thinks my ass isn't big enough and i have to sit down more so that it can grow to humongous proportions. haha but I love you eli, and I know scheduling's hell, so I'm just gonna shut up and do it. But I guess I don't really have a choice haha
Nat, remember the time just before you left and everyone was giving you hell. You were grumpy and frustrated and you refused to talk to us, refused to tell us what was wrong? And then we forced it out of you with flowers and sweetness haha and we forced to you go out with us. And later that night after 'you left Nic's house, you were happy again, for the first time in like two weeks, and you sent us a msg? This is what is said, "hEY babes, i just wanna let u girls noe tat u girls r e best n u make me reallie happy. Sometimes i wonder wat i'll do w/o e 2 of u.. Duno why i even kept away 4 so long.. Thanks a hell lot man.. Love u loads.. N eli, if u died, i'll lose a part of me man. Same 4 u mei! Thanks alot! *muacks*"
I just wanted to say don't pull away babe, we don't wanna lose you. Its tough as hell over there, I know. Ok maybe I don't know because I'm not there. But I sure as hell feel that you're hurting, otherwise I wouldn't be tearing now... It really hurts to see you feeling so lost because I feel partly responsible, for encouraging you to go for it. I'm sorry babe, I didn't know it would be like that... That night at boon's house, yes that very drunk night, my heart broke to see you unhappy...
I just hope you find the strength in you to dig up the weeds in your life and throw them out. Remember Eli's entry? You are what you make yourself feel? I think its also true that you become what other people think you are if you keep on believing what they tell you you are. Don't let them tell you that you're not worth it. Don't let them tell you you're any less. I suppose these are, but just words. I don't know how else. Believe in yourself more won't you? Its a rough patch. You'll ride through it because you're strong enough, I know that much.
~mei~ |
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