| Thursday, November 29, 2007 |
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"have you taken your medicine?"
"not yet"
"come over here"
and my dad walked over to the sink and leaned over to avoid spilling whilst my 17 year old brother fed him his medicine.
its funny how the older old people get, the more child-like they become.
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i know no one's updated for a long time.
I echo Charmaine's sentiment that I've never been so unprepared for an exam in my entire life. ok maybe that's not entirely true. but never has an exam period been so trying.
dad's taken ill. alcoholic hepatitis. should've seen it coming the way he was drinking. but we all think we are invincible when everything's ok. at least its not the big C. Couple of fridays ago I received a call from my mum telling me to come home immediately and her voice was cracking up. she barely managed to tell me that my dad might have cancer. hopped into a cab and raced home from ko's place in jurong west in peak hour traffic.
a few hours of waiting around to hear the worst, we were told thankfully by the drunk specialist (we think he got the urgent call and had to come back to the hospital from his friday night partying haha) that there was no blockage, which meant no cancer.
the liver's supposed to have incredible powers of rejuvenation but things haven't been improving. he's yellow with jaundice, can barely muster up enough energy to get out of bed, can barely stomach the tasteless food and porridge he has to eat, and as a result has lost a whole lotta weight in a span of a few weeks. the worst thing is that there is no treatment for alcoholic hepatitis because the liver is supposed to heal itself.
so everyday its only been about trying to cram as much studying as i possibly can, and preparing meals for my dad, trying to coax him to eat, making sure he's comfortable and dealing with his occasional grumpiness. i swear my body's only functioning because of the copious amounts of coffee i drink everyday. I've even developed this weird eyelid twitch in my right eye. its not like any normal twitch. you can literally see the entire muscle curling up and releasing in its bouts of spasms. it has a life of its own.
anyway a trip to the doctor yesterday revealed that dad's not doing well and it doesn't seem like the liver is recovering. but he doesn't know what's going on. haha. liver specialist. but i think i've watched enough House to figure out that doctors don't know everything because they're not God. So he's prescribed some antibiotics because he thinks there might be an infection preventing the liver from recovering. Tomorrow's blood test number dunno how many to determine if the antibiotics are working. Fingers crossed.
i'm so tired its not even funny but life goes on. things could be much worse! i'm just thankful that the worst of exams are almost over. take heed future plc students. never leave Crim Pro and Civ Pro till the last minute. you will drown.
~mei~ |
| posted by 3 @ 10:33 PM |
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| Thursday, November 15, 2007 |
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its been such a long time since any of us posted.
i'm back home. in singapore. this was supposed to be my final move back home but after 3 days, i realized that i couldn't stay if it wasn't a vacation. so off i went to the embassy and extended my U.S visa, with hopes that in the next six months, i'll have another great journey and some large company will fall in love with me and want me to stay in the states permanently and i can forget about coming back to my supposed home in telok blangah.
my parents think that i've turned into an overseas snob. someone who has travelled somewhere and has the impression that they can no longer return home. in some sense, i might be one for the simple fact that i've been to somewhere else during my formative years, met someone and fell in love and became independent. its very hard to come back after all that, especially when you've embarked on your journey by your lonesome self. but it hasn't been lonesome, i promise you.
my dad commented that he felt that he has failed as a father and that he did not do his patriotic duty because he allowed both his children to study overseas and they no longer want to return. he gave me a long speech about singapore being left on a stand still if all her young talent decides to disappear. I told him i've fulfilled my duty because my absence has allowed one more china girl to viit singapore on her 30 day social pass and find an old man to make him happy. =)
nonetheless, i'm home. plotting to get out. but i'm free. so if anyone wants to look for me, give me a call. i'm relatively free..
nat |
| posted by 3 @ 7:32 PM |
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